PLAYiNG:feelitboy

ITS OVER AND DONE..IM NOT STRESSiNG ANYMORE ABOUT THAT GURRRRRRRRR

FUCKING UNBELIEVABLE..these past weeks have been a total change..more posts later

PLAYiNG:SK8RBOi
WHAT A FCKiN WRECK "KiCK A TRiCKS ASS" "BiTCHGURL"RITEJEFF?

first of all..blogging hasn't been my major thing to do on the list jibberish..but here i am..on a friday night when i could be watching the game against ASIJ..but i aint..kuz i left purdy early..so anyway..recap on my week..last sunday i went to kaybee's first practice..i havent been to a practice since when..middle skool..havent really had the motivation to get off my ass and do shit ..except for hw..but thats an exception..bkuz my grades depend on that..so anyway..brisney is my FARTner..and its pritty kOol..kuz we're the kOolest of frens..and i gess being with him is dOoOoPE..hes not them serious guys that are like.."OKAYE LiSTEN..DO THIS DO THAT.." thats the gur's job..but i dont push him too much when it comes to me and him dancin and shit..its kOo..you should see us..we act like we know what were doing..but really we dont what the hell is goin on or how the steps go..we jes go with the flow i gess?! blahhhhh..we'll get it sooner or later..its only september..the debut isnt til november anyway..hahah.. we're starters..i gess were too shy to be dancing with eachother..well, i feel like that..but i dont know..things have CHANGED A LOT between me and him..

mondays, tuesdays, wednesdays, blahh..same ol shit on and on and on and on..skool is NEVER GOING AWAY..i want to go away..get away from homework..but i cant do that..im only a fckin JUNIOR..one more year and im out of this mofo..i still dont know where or what ima be doing..but the plan for cali with me, anne, and pie is still on.. yeeaaaaahhhh..haha..but jeaaa.. yesterday was open house..and i finally ordered my yearbook..whOooa..ive been waiting..i wanna see how the yearbook is gonna look like this year..even tho im gonna be leaving pritty soon nex year..s'all gooooOoo..i can get anne to go pick it up for me..and tell eryone to sign it so i can see it when she brings it down..er i come get it..whichever..even tho this place is really shiitty..i still dont want to leave..making me think about it makes me very emotional..blahhhh its true im a TRUE EMO AT HEART..and i plan to stay that way..its not healthy..but im used to it..crying in one day is BAD..i tell you BAD..BAD BAD BAD BAD..but ive been thrOo too much crap like that..have you ever wanted something so bad in your life so much you cried? yah well ive felt like that quite a few times..well..lets say..IVE BEEN FEELING LIKE THAT..

today is friday..the THURTEENTH....DUNDUNDUUUNNNNNN..whOooo..you know what that means..hahah i dont even know..but anyway..my day started out pritty gOod..i had ms. bork for 5th and she let us eat in class today..i was soooooo hungry outta my nuts i jes had to stuff myself with some frozen coconut cookies she was offering..even tho i ate at galley this morning with karenbell, leonard, and pat..i still felt hungry..ive never been so hungry in my life..i even ate before our lunch break..during middle skool's lunch..chicken tenders and cookies with caFRRRRRi sun is deeeeeelisssshhoOoos..oh yah..before 6th period..hahah i had the HUGEST HIGHLIGHT..[lookkjflskjfsoverklfjklsdjfmylsjfskdjfshoulder] mwahahha..ill keep that one to myself..then we had a PEP RALLY ..our skoOl was soooooo hyped up..we actually lost the JV GAME today..and me and piara passed by to see the game..and we saw that an ambulance was passing by..so we went to go see who got hurt..it was actually someone from our team bkuz the JV football players were kneeling down for the injured dOod..i still dont know who that was..but ill pray for him too!! =\ aww

they announced the new student council members for this year..and when this DOOD'S name popped up..i heard "GO BELLE!!" that shit was totally not for me..but mann did i like that..HIGHLiTE..hahah ..hMmm..thinking about it..or me.. NAHHHHHHHH
we saw jeff and decided to jes chill with him..kuz we dint have any frens..kaycee had her dope RAV4..but i didnt chill in there and went to jeffs skyline wit piara..he played ALWAYS ON TiME for me on the geEhtar..oOoh mannnnnn...TURNNNN ONNNNNN..guitars are the sexiest..and ALWAYSONTIMEismyABSOLUTESTSTESSTESTS FAVORITE SONG..well..i dont know about some other feeful..but it reminds me about some things..id rather not mention..people who know me ..know..YOU ASK THEM..hahah ..then the topic on BITCHGURL comes up..OOoH I SWEAR..i really dont know what to do about that chick..the only thing is i dont hate her..i jes dislike her at the moment bkuz of her motif and what her ..lets call it.. GAME is about..jus pisses the efffin FRiCK OUTTA ME..we cruised for the LONGEST TIME..mann i was about to fall asleep..and i messed with all the songs.. if i could go..contigo..ill pack my things..soon as you say..baby vamos..we'll fly away..like there is no..no tomorroeSTILL STUCK IN MY HEAD..hehehe.. we went to the tennis courts..and chilled for the longest time..jammin to music..thats the most FUNNEST..mwahahha..they all went w/ tris to go eat at bamiyan..i didnt go..i felt bad for piara kuz she was feeling sick and she dint want to go either..so i stayed with her..i had to go home..or WANTED [atthemoment] to go home in like an hour or so..we ate at mcdo..and WE HAD SHITLOAD TO TALK ABOUT..i really feel..weird about somethings..but it'll pass..im glad i got someone like pie to talk to..wHERE WOULD I BE WITHOUT CHUUUUUU..hahah.. we went to watch the game..and the varsity game was about to start..so we stood there with carol, bailey, and joel..what a punk!! ahha..but YELIAB SI TOH.. ohhhhhhhhhh geeeezzzzzloooooweeez..only slow people wouldnt get what i jes typed..but BLAHHH..

I LEFT..half of varsity game..but let me jes say..that this day was shitty..but fun at the same time..there were some things i totally did NOT want to see today..and it pissed the eff outta me..holy baAAAAAhgeezus..not like anyone reads this..but i should end it..blogs these days are getting pritty long..mabeeh kuz i havent written in herrrrrrr. hmmm.. jeffer meffer.. thats jeffs new nickname..hahah..what a cOo homeboy..i love my friends to death

oh mann..what a week

daym i havent blogged in like almost a week.i gess school got me too caught up in like hw and shit..but ima make a quick post..todays a sunday..i didnt really do shit yesterday..some black folks came over and they're pritty kool..um..today i gotta go kaybee's debut practice..weee..WE COULDNT WAIT HUH ANNE? anyway..yeeaahh..ill blog more laters..i don think i really got the time to do this ish no more :\ awww

daym..sixteen already..
PLAYiN: COMPLiCATED
FEELiN: mOody..pms thing

wEeEeeEeeeeeeeeee..YESTERDAY was madddd fun..even tho i dint really do crap on my bday..but i couldnt wait til today..and what time is it? 903 am? hahah.yah im about to leave in like an hour and go piaras house..but anyway..let me tell you about my day yesterday..i woke up at around 5 kuz it TAKES me ages to get myself ready..the past few days ive been waking up late..as in..6 er 545..and i leave at around 610 to go onbase with pat leonard tonimae and karenbell and sometimes francis.. so anyway.. i put on my sooper kool sunglasses.hahh bspears stylleee.. mwahahahh..yah then like..we dint eat at the galley kuz leonard had to do hw in the van so we stayed there for awhile..then we went to skoOL..piara gave me a roxy shirt that she got for me when she went to the states..i went to the lockers and found that they decorated it with rugrats wrapping paper with a big ass bow on the top..weeeeeeee.. hahah yahhh.. then after college prep..i went to my locker agen..and bris came and i gave him a hug..and he was jes standing there..til he asked me if i can have my plastic bag for his shoes? hahahah..then i gave it to him..and went back to my locker..then roanne goes.. "BELLE.." and i turn around..and bris has this red shirt in his hands..hahah ..and i go..in my head..WHoOoA..is that for me? i gess it was kuz he was looking str8 at me..hesitating to give it to me..so i finally gave in and walked up to him and i saw that it sed hurley onit..stuff from pacsun rocks so i thought it would be kool to get a shirt like that too..i was sOoO SURPRiSED i gave him a biiiiiiiiggggg hug..its red and it jes says hurley in the middle of the shirt..someone told me it was his favorite shirt so he gave it to me..=) aw...thanks bris!!
so anyway..by the end of the day..people are jes saying..happy birthday happy burhdae..blahblahblah..too many thank yous and blahblah..we ate at food court for lunch..and mann..THOSE FRESHMENS..geezus christ..theres jes a shitload of them erywhere..hahah..er "WHAT BELLE..R----E has s NiCE ASS" hahahahahah..oh lordyyyy..after sKoOl..pieyah gave me this card that eryone signed..awww... hahah..then we went to the exchange and chilled for awhile..we were all planning to go..offbase..but since kaybee had to go home..we all decided to jes go tomorroe.. as in today.. then after that..we saw kaycee..and decided to jes go her house and chill..we practically KiLLED ALLLL HER FOOD and raided her shit.. we finished about half a bag of chips..and all the DIP!! ..WHoOOoOo..today agen!!?!? hahahha..then like..we watched saving silverman..NEiL DiAMOND!! HAHAHA..and i was jes out of it that day..we went exchange kuz karenbells parents were there..i decided to go too..kuz then i had to go eat with my parents..since i was gonna go out the whole day today..oh yah..and i saw ervin..he remembered my birthday too..so he gave me this thing for your phone..er..you know..that wrap around thing that covers your whole phone..ugh hard to explain..ill show whoever.. met up with her rents at the commisary..then we went daiei..i was sooooooooo skurred that i was gonna get in trubble kuz i didnt know we were gonna daiei?!? hahaha i had to go home and leave and eat..but then she had to pay her phone bill..anyway i didnt get in trubble this time..alrite well..im about to get ready..we'll see what today brings.............. =) weeeeeeeeeeee

i FEEL LiKE iVE LOST A BEST FRiEND

whooOo..what fckin shitty day..i havent blogged since..the FIRST FUCKEN DAY OF SKOOL..and now i here i am..todays my brothers bday..and tomorroe is MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINE!! hahahaha..sweet SEXTEEN NIGGGAA.. i cant wait..errr anyway..lately ive been thinking about too much shit..i gess this person thinks that i really dont kur about his/her feelings..but honestly, i do..i cant live without this person..without him/her i'd rather be dead..SERIOUSLY..im the one who fucked up the whole friendship..and now it leads to this..lately he/she's been berry distant..and i gess things changed after what happened..im so stOOpid from keeping it away..worse, LYiNG..but i gess im stooPiD enough to figure out that eryone would know eventually..lying is what really got me in trubble..i mean i couldve jes sed the truth..but the TRUTH HURTS..and thats the reason why i lied in the first place..yah yah i know..i should be honest and straight up..being it all that this person is my bressresrestestetet frerererereeiiiiiiiinddddd in the worldddd..and uh..i gess things are NEVER gonna be the same agen..i noticed it..in the past few days that skool has started..i feel like shit..foreal..he/she thinks i really dont kur..what tha fuck..how the fuck can i NOT CARE..i dont understand why he/she couldnt get mad at the OTHER person..there are some people like that..and i didnt know this person would TAKE it like this..but i gess..thats his/her choice..and seriously, its up to him/her if she wants to keep the friendship with me? its my fault..it happened all bekuz of me..why should i make the decision..i understand he/she still wants to keep the friendship bekuz thats what they told me themselves..but then agen other people say that they should end it..maybe i shouldnt talk to him/her for awhile..so then can make up their mind..settle the decision on whether or not they wanna be my friend..its all up to them..its not all up to me..the damage has already been done =(

shoot.me
i want to be with robin now
i wanna get out of here
theres no use of me staying here
tell all my friends im dead
i have no friends..

[UGGGH..what a bad fckin day]lk
I HAD THE WORST SKOOL DAY EVER..OMG..

i woke up at 430 this morning..so i could get a ride with leonard..i walked all the way to his house..and mannnnn..was i tired? going up the hill is KILLER! anyway..so then we left..and we went to go eat at the galley..breakfast date with the one and only leonard..and pat and francis sat at the table next to us..whOoO..LEONARD WAS ACTING SOOOOOOO RETARDED..haha..you should've seen him this morning..oh lordyyy..i finally got to skool..and KARENBELL'S BACK!!! after galley..we went to go pick up jeff..then like..going to skool..this fckin car was slowing all of us down..i think those guys literally did that on purpose..we were running a lil late [or so we thought] so people behind us kept beeping at that mofo..anyway..i got my schedule..IT SUX!! i have no classes with my gurs..foreal!! hahaha..so im planning on changing some shit around ..prolly tomorroe after skool..first period was kOo..i got college prep with leonard..haha [HI MY NAME IS LEONARD ANDREW MACATOL ..CHEEEESE:D] hahaha..hes a fruit..or the "BOOKS ARE SOOOOOO OVERRATED" hahahaah..yahhh we rock in that class..2nd i got chem with kaybee, dion, jackie, anne, and barbara..yeeeaaaahhhh ..hahah and 3rd sux! spanish was not what i wanted so ima change that..roanne was in my honors class..but i think that gur is gonna change out of it..so yah..it was pritty shitty..some things kinda pissed me off today..and i cried like maddddd when i got home..another fight with my unstoppable mom..keeps talking and talking and talking..NO STOPPiNG?! GEEZUS..and some shit that happened today..i cant get it out of my head..i feel like i lost a fren..seriously..its the first day of skool..im supposed to be nervous/happy/giddy all that good shit..but no..i dont feel any of that..i feel like im a really bad person..and i did something wrong..i know i should feel ashamed for..most of all kuz it hurts SOMEONES feelings..to that person..i'd jes like to say im sorry for whatever..and for THAT..but i still have mad luv for you and that i hope our friendship doesnt change and that we could still be the closest of friends..alwaise..forever..haha..whenever?? yeaaahh..alrite well..TODAY WAS GAY..wow that rhymed =D hahaha..and errrr..WE'LL SEE WHAT HAPPENS TOMORROE.. =\

geez that blog down there is fckin long =\

YOU KNOW..i DONT LiKE PEOPLE WiTH BiG LiPS..HHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA =)
ROOOOOAANNNNNEEE JANNNNNEEEE GAAARRRCIIIAAAAAA DOOOOOMINNNNNNGGGOO
PLAYiN: bitter
FEELiN: surprised.flattered.overwhelmed.haffy.sad.moody

MANN OH MANN OH MANNNNN....WHAT A DAYYYY..ERRR..WHERE DO i BEGiN..i went onbase today..for the first time in like...how many days..haha i make it sound so looooonnggg..but anyway..errmm..around 2 i left..and anne called to say she would meet up with me at the exchange..unfortunately, she didnt go..for some gay reason..she has problems..so im sitting at the food court like a little loser waiting for her ass..until i call and she said she had to do stuff for her mom..yeahhh gRRREAT..THANKs FOR TELLiNG ME..but while i was there i saw leonard and pat..driving around in circles..looking for somewhere to park..i gess they dint see me..kuz then jesse was with me and he jes came to say hi..until we like..WAVED AT THEM..i gess they werent paying attention to anyone in the food court so they dint see us..i got tired ..er impatient waiting for anne..so i called dion to see whats up..and where they were at..he and tris came to pick me up..and then we went to fuji kuz jeff was fixing his speakers?! or something with his car..and i saw francis too..what a butthead! all of them are! [its not funny..] oh yah before i forget..HAPPiE BiRFDAE pATRiCK

i left after 1o minutes to go get my mom and brother at my aunties house..they were getting a haircut..my mom looks younger..my brother looks weird..i dint even recognize him when i came to get them..haha i was like.."uh..who are you?!" when he came to answer the door..oh shit..and finally i got a haircut too! its about time! my hair was looking..whack..i swear people kept saying i looked old..kuz my hair was fckin long! i missed it so much..i saw kaycee was rite..she asked me if i cried and i said..nah..but i did..but not a lot..hahah..i gess she prolly would've too..she told me cutting her hair was a big mistake..but i dont think her hair looked bad to me at all..i gess she wanted to try something new? ..........i cried kuz i was mad ..my mom wants it fckin short..as in a lil above the shoulder..maybe up to my ears? HELL FCKiN NO..above the shoulder is tOO SHORT!..my hair is past my shoulders still..but its not as long as before..before..it was um..way past my chest..as in..almost to the middle of my back er..to my stomach maybe? whOo..lordy..its weird..but i miss my hair..=( blahhh..after that..i left agen kuz i dint wanna stay with them..so i went to bris' house to go visit him.. i havent seen that mofo since..july? i felt like i went on vacation and that i jes got back..kuz bris looks really different..i dont know..he looks older to me..kuz before he looked like a little small kid..now he looks much older and darker..shiiiiit..DARKER THAN ME..mwahahha.. its a good thing..and he grew..kuz it looked like he got taller..SO ANYWAY..he had to go church so i left..to go back..i was pritty glad i saw him today =) its good to know that even tho things dont work out with some people sometimes..that at least you can still be frens..maybe the closest of frens..who knoes? i mean..i even got along with his mom..the first thing i said to her was "mann, auntie i havent seen you in a long time" and she goes "you havent seen brian in a long time?" and i go.." NOOOO..i sed youuu, auntie" haha..she goes.."ohhhhhhhhhhhhh" it kinda felt weird..kuz i was used to ..SOME THiNGS..you know..the hugging shit..and blah blah..but we dint do that..we acted like normal frens..for some reason im still not use to it..and i get all kj thinking about it..and when i talk to roanne..i talk to her like we're still together but we're not..i mean..theres no shame in that..thats really how i feel..but i need to get over it..kuz im fckin stoOPid anyway..roanne talks to me like we're still together too! so we're both even..who the hell has no life and is reading this fckin blog anyway? err whoever is..now you know how i really feel..

after that i went back to get my mom..AND omg..if i were to rename my mom..i'd call her sOoperwoman..geeeez..my mom is not afrayd er embarassed about the fact that she walks with crutches..holy shitballs..im walking next to her and ..i gess all these cars and people pass by..and like..i mean of course you're gonna stare and look at who that person is..my mom thinks shes the only filipino woman who has a broken leg on both ikego and yoko..im like..WTF? MOM, WHY ARE YOU EVEN THiNKiNG ABOUT THAT? hahaha..sorry..it cracks me up too..but dont make fun of her..so anyway..all these people are jes passing by staring at my mom..and from the corner of my eye i can see my mom..jes looking at them..with this LOOK..like.."YAH THiS iS ME..GOTTA PROBLEM?..246-8836" im like..mom, stop looking at them like that..she goes "well since they keep looking might as well look at my FACE too if they wanna know who i am" ..eeehhhhh i busted out rite then and there..my mom can be a crack sometimes..she was actually not in her usual bitch mode like before..i like my mom better that way..it doesnt make me want to throw a brick at her..i went comissary to get some shit that we needed for my brother..and gess who i saw..dundundunnnnnnnn JEDDDDD!! weeee..i missed that boy! we both live in the same base and we still dont even chill..lately its been joy but i gess jed's busy with football and stuff..he says he's gonna save me a seat on the bus..yah he better =) i got a breakfast date ..WHAT NOW? yah and money to buy jed a drink..last year, it was a daily thing..erytime i'd ask him to go with me to the exchange to get food ..he'd say "MABELLE, CAN YOU BUY THIS FOR ME?" =\

after comissary i went exchange and got food for my brother and mom..i ate taco bell..and i got mad kuz there's no more CHEESY gorditas......gaaaaaddddd dammit..scOOBER the loser went with me..i went home with icelle and her family kuz they gave us a ride..shes pritty kOo to talk to ..i gess that was the first time i really talked to her..kuz she always rode my bus..but we never sat next to eachother or really talked..i think the last time i talked to her ..on the bus was prolly when skool was ending? hahha.yah shes trippin out kuz she thinks ima have the same clothes as her for this skool year? wtf? she shops at alloy..i dont shop there as much as i do at pacsun so i told her to chill out..=)

theres been a lot of things on my mind lately..i cant really turn to a lot of people..what people dont know wont hurt them..i dont know how to really express the way i feel rite now..about a bunch of THiNGS..but im not scared..i can handle this on my own..

oh wait did i forget to tell you..i was pritty glad to see someone today..that feeling is overwhelming..seeing someone after what seems soooooooooo long ago is the greatest..i dont think im gonna ever feel like that agen..

shoot.me

PLAYiN: complicated
FEELiN: weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

OMMMMMGGG..i GOT CAUGHT..GAAAAADDDD RiTE ANNE? geeeeeez..iF iT WASNT FOR MY STOOPID MOM..I WOULDN'T HAVE TO GET OFF THE FCKiN PHONE..ANYWAY.ERRR..LATELY IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT TOO MUCH SHIT..ITS FRUSTRATING BUT ILL MANAGE..THE WEEKEND NEEDS TO COME NOW..BKUZ FOR SOME REASON I WANT SKOOL TO START.....AAAHHHHHH GEEEEEZ..ERRR
OKAYEEE..ANYWAY..I CANT SLEEP..holy crap..HIGHLIGHT..lowdark....YEAAAAAAAHHH ..mwahahha

PLAYiN: DONT CHANGE i was meant for you and you were meant for me yeah / and ill make sure that i'll be everything you need yeah
FEELiN: overwhelmed

WHY i LOVE YOU
..MAYBE THATS THE REASON WHY i LOVE YOU..YOU'RE MY HEART..BOY..AND WiTH ALL THE CRAZY THiNGS THAT i DO..YOU'RE STiLL HERE..YEAH..NO ONE ELSE CAN MAKE ME FEEL LiKE YOU DO..YOU CHANGED MY WORLD..MAYBE THATS THE REASON WHY i LOVE YOU..

i fell in love with that song the moment i heard it..mwahahha i jes got back from my aunties house..and mannnnnn typhoon's are a BiTCH..geeeez i woke up this morning at 9 something kuz then..i went onbase..i ended up going to the hospital with my mom and my auntie and her daughters..and then i had this HUUUUUGE STOMACHACHE..oommmgg..its that time of the month..then we ate at mcdo..then i went to roannes house to get my stufff..yeeeahhh hahah i finally got my stuff..there goes my bday present..thanks anne..then i went home after that..kuz i didnt feel like staying out today..its ugly outside so i wanted to go home so badly..once i got home..i spent five er six hours watching music videos..geeeeez it was long..including all the commercials from the states..whOo i missed those..hahah..yeeahhh thats when i heard that song up there..if someone sang "why i love you" to me and actually meant it..i'd cry..its flattering and it shows how much a person feels for youuu..B2K sings it and they're HOOOOOTTTTT..and like..i prolly watched that 9 or 10 times already..im not even tired of it..yettt..errr well..roanne called me and kristian and tris were there..and i didnt talk long kuz my mom was waiting for a phone call..anne brought up the ..whOole.. "labber" thing..mannn oh mannnnn DONT SAY THAT TO MEEEEE..gurrrr were not even..a THiNG ANYMORE..i like you the way you are..when we're driving in your car..and you're talking to me one on one says avril [MEMORiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiEZZZZZZZZZZmay4]

the music videos were more like..songs that guys should sing to gurs kinda thing..you know? like the sappy love crap that a bunch of dOods were singing..the "gOod man" song was sad..kuz in the end i think..he was gonna ask his gurl to marry him..but she died..so it was too late..so he left the ring on top of her coffin and walked off..oh mann what am i talken about ..whoevers bored out of their nuts thats actually reading this is prolly like..clueless..if you didnt see that yet..then yahhh..go watch it..if you have cable er whatever..go watch bet..anyway..jes a row of 4164716475 this week!! yeeaaahhhh goooooooooooo..anyway i cant go to sleep nowadays for some reason..i think i have some insomnia disease in me..SO WHAT DO i DO? go online and talk to people...errrr yesterday ralph slept over pats and i talked to them for awhile..ohhh geeeeeznuts..[BABOON..i dEMAND yOU sEiZE tHAT aT oNCE..MAAAAAKEEEEEE MEEEEEE] hAHhahaha..

i was thinking agen today..err staying at home makes you think a lot..but have you ever wondered how sometimes there comes a chance when you want to let something out so bad..but you hesitate and end up not saying anything at all and..keeping it inside for the longest time..and regretting it in the end or by the end of the day..i alwaise felt like that..i regret the fact that i wanted to say something to someone..or at least do something..like a conversation or even a "Hi" probably..but then i chicken out at the end..blahhh geeeez..whats wrong with me..i mean..im not the only chick that does that..theres other gurls like that out there..piara would know..bkuz when i ask her about something like that..she says the exact thing i say..its natural for something like that to happen..maybe its a sign that its not the RIGHT time to say er do..whatever the hell was on your mind..maybe thats what kept me from regretting not saying anything..i should learn how to overcome that..

PLAYiN: understatement
FEELiN: yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy =)

the unevitable happened..too many things happening in one day..good lord..so anyway i blogged awhile ago..but i ended talking on the phone with anne on and off..mwahahah yeeeeeeahhhh..you should hear our dope pick up lines..they're so retarded ..we could kill the moment if we wanted to..after hearing our jokes..its like.....GETTT OUTTTT hahaha..yeahhhh well..errmM..she was at jeffs house and she was BORED so her dumb butt called me and we talked for awhile..after that my auntie came over and asked us if we still wanted to go onbase tomorroe kuz den the storms pritty much already here..and blahhh out of all the summer days i could've went out..it jes HAD TO RAiN..on the day that i wanted to actually chill with my frens..then fatrick called but we dint talk that long..i went online..and blah [ 1 607 217 3177217 from dundundunnnnnnnnnnn..yeah you know ] for the VERY VERY FiRST TiME it took a miracle to write that..but geeeeez..out of all the times why now? rite..well yahhhh. my feelings for this someone grew stronger and stronger..i cant help to think how much i miss that boy..

FOR SOME REASON..roanne got fat.. i mean its mean how we all clown on her about getting fat..and her eating huge gigantic watermelons er cantalOops er even.. a PiG..[gooooo headdd diiiiioonnn] but i still lah you gurrr.. mwahhaha..its okaye to be thick

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee cant wait.. tomorroe should come now..even tho its like 112 in the morning..errrrrrr PiZZAAAAAA..yyyuummm

PLAYiN: MY FRiENDS OVER YOU
FEELiN: sssOooOoOoo GREATTTT 1 607 a 416471647..HiiiiiiiiiiiiGHDARK..highlight ..highdark..OH MANN

heyheyhey..whoawhoawhoa..didnt blog..ohhhh nooooo..mwahahha anyway....whoOo what a weekend..can you believe skOol's almost startin..aaaaaahhh hahahahha..oh lordy..i so dont not want it to start..im not ready to wake up early in the morning to spend more than an hour in one class each day..i hate that..but anyway.. yesterday was pritty kOo..i saw dundundunnnnnn.. ROANNE!! hahah i havent seen that biznitch in the longest time..OoOh wait what am i talken about..hahah i was w/ her in the states..for like the whole month of july and half of august..mwahahha we jes got back on friday....AHAHAHHAHAH..ANYWAY..yahhhh hilarious crap..but she came to visit me yesterday..along with kristian and ralph..after that..we walked to pats house and we all jes chilled there..me anne ralph kristian pat francis and steevOo..nothing interesting it got boring..and mann i was in my PMS STAGE..i had these really bad cramps..but i dont know why..im late ..so yahhh.. maybe thats why..deeenn..after that i left to go home..i wasnt feeling well..and roanne burned me new found glory's new cd!!! hahahah yeeaaaahh they rock..mwahahha..you notice my label up top.."im drunk off yer kisss..." it comes off their album..so anyway..im not even gonna ask anything from her..anymore..in awhile..kuz dat ghur pritty much got erything i wanted..and since she loves me so much she got it ALLLL for me..aahahhahah oh mannnnnnnn.. SNL ANNE! "YOUR CONCEiTED.." or " YOUR THE DEViL.." oh lordyyy..i stayed up til 5 talking to anne...jes reminscing.."lets go.. all of us once agen..pull another 81215'5 house.." mwahahhahah oh lordyyy..i got a highlite..once agen..thank the lord for best frens..seriously what can you do without them..i might go out and jump on all the puddles outside my sidewalk since the typhoon's almost coming.. sweeeeetttttttt aaaaassssss.. =)

..THiS is BECOMiNG TOO ROUTiNE FOR ME..BUT i DiDNT MEAN TO LEAD YOU ON.. AND iTS ALRiTE TO PRETEND THAT WE STiLL
TALK..iTS JUS FOR SHOW..iSNT iT..iTS MY FAULT THAT iT FELL APART..

PLAYiN: THE MOST DEPRESSiNG SONG
FEELiN: gOodness GRACiOUS GRRRRRREAT..
wait do those two make sense up there.. ehhhh.. MiXED EMOTiONS..
= most incredible thing happened today = [am]

cat the loser nerd jes left my house a few minutes ago..i didnt do jack shit today..even tho i went out it was pritty shitty as alwaise..first off my mom was madddddddddddddddddd yelling and pms'ing over the stoOpid things agen today..gaaaadd how erkin she can be at times..then i get ready at around 130 kuz i was planning on kickin it with steven and frances but i couldnt get a hold of them..so i ended up sstaying with my mom the whole time..anyway..i got to the exchange and where do i go first? strayt to the kid's sections..pants here capris there shirts there sweaters here..whOoO i spent prolly an hour and a half jes looking throO them..one of my guilty pleasures is shOPPiNG..and ohHh how i love doing that..even trying clothes on kills time with me and my frens..i end up getting some stuff and a pair of ppants and thats probably it..hMm..more stuff..nahhhhh maybe later..i saw jeff and steven today kuz they were outside the exchange talking to frances on their cell..mannnnnnn oh mannnnnn i saw that ghurl..and seriously her phone is a RETARD..i wanted to throw it at her..i. called her cell almost a ba-ZiLLiON times..and she would nevvvvvvveeeeeerrrrrrr answer..mwahahha i still lah you ..and dannnn we jes talked for awhile while jeff bought hot cocoa..more like COLD..then i ended up eating a shitload of fOod..i dont know what made me oh-so hungry but my tummy was not cOoperating with me..it kept saying..........i NEEEEDDDD FOOOOOOOOOODDDDDD ..hahaha whOo the joy of fOod..i cant live without you..your wondering how the hell does this chick like fOod so much shes not gaining anything from it..first of all im not a FATTY GURL like roanne ..all people say is "mabelle, YOUR SKiNNY GO EAT"..i say.. SHUT THE FCK UP..really, i hate hearing that from people..it lowers my confidence in eating all together..what do you want me to do? keep eating nonstop eryday in whatever i frickin find in my ref..geez, thanx for the encouragement it really helps..stoopid bitches..so ANYWAY...i got home around 8 and cat came over..we talked things out..and reminisced..[iNSiDEJOKECAT!] hahahaha..thats the greaaaaaateeeestttt.. i'd have to say having deep conversations are one of the best things in life..i swear having gOOD conversations are really grrrrrreat..you should try it sometime with people you dont really talk with..then you'll know more about that person and that person might know more about you..making it more reason to be their fren..or for them to be your fren..or other way around.....nerrrrrrrrrmind you know what i mean? blahh..i jus thought of JOSH HARTNETT agen.. sorry piara.. MMMMMMMMUUUHHHHHHBBEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLEEE....whOoOOoOooOOoo BABY! SAY iT AGEN! =)